Commitments, Duty, Avoidance, Mental Illness…and Grace?
Cats: Personal|Putting off creditors
Rescheduling counseling appointments
Not focusing on work
Pushing friends away
Neglecting home, wife, family, self
Anxious
Chemical
Biological
Spiritual
Music – no help
Blogging – no help
Avoiding what I need to do – no help
Waist-deep in a mud-hole
Water rising
Will the flood waters drown me or save me?
Crowds rush loudly past
My cries for help can’t be heard above the noise
If I reached out to grasp at someone,
Anyone,
Will they kick me?
Will they stumble and be unable to help me?
Where is God? (Where He has always been)
Why can’t I see Him? (I am turned away from Him)
How? Why? Am I able to pull the paper bag off of my head?
I permitted it to be placed there to begin with
Undeserving, I
Lack…I am void, wanting for something
Not just anything
Why does God’s Word look like bitter medicine? (Because I am sick)
Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD;
O Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.
If you, O LORD, kept a record of sins,
O Lord, who could stand?
But with you there is forgiveness;
therefore you are feared.
In his hand are the depths of the earth,
and the mountain peaks belong to him.
O Israel, put your hope in the LORD,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
